Companionship

TO live like that,
must be a sin,
to stay unearthed,
to keep within.

They say I never,
shared with anyone.
I need someone special,
To help raise sun.

Fire that dwindles,
every single day.
it's going down worse,
to a manner which can't stay.

I rely on my fix,
my endless obsession,
because I can't handle,
I can't keep discretion.

When will this end,
when will they save me,
I need so much help,
I need to be free.
Nobody sees it,
they live their own lives,
don't care about me,
for theirs to arrive.

A cry for help
I need the help,
through silenced screams,
and pathetic yelps.

Angrier I rise,
never release,
endless obsession,
the pain of increase.

And I do,
I really try.
On me so much,
on me you rely.

And you know it's all true.
destroying in you.
because it kills,
seeing through you.

And it makes me feel bad,
so fucked up, and dying.
always getting worse.
because of their lying.

But you don't want to help,
And embrace me so,
I just want that touch,
and to never let go.

But not what you want,
you want me for that,
not to help me,
but to be your rat.

I'm not a pretty boy,
or one to be played,
not looking for fools,
or just to get laid.

I just want a friend,
to see to my end,
I want a companion,
I just want a friend.